“My body seemed to offend him.”
In a new issue of People magazine, Chrissy Metz shared heartbreaking passages from her upcoming memoir, This Is Me, about growing up with a physically and mentally abusive stepfather.
Chrissy was only eight years old when her father left, leaving her mom to raise Chrissy and her siblings on her own. Denise eventually met and married Chrissy’s stepfather, a man named Trigger. It didn’t take long for the mistreatment to begin.
“My body seemed to offend him, but he couldn’t help but stare, especially when I was eating. He joked about putting a lock on the refrigerator.”
“We had lived with a lack of food for so long that when it was there, I felt like I had to eat it before it disappeared. Food was my only happiness.”
“I don’t remember why Trigger hit me the first time. He never punched my face. Just my body, the thing that offended him so much.”
“He shoved me, slapped me, punched my arm. He would hit me if he thought I looked at him wrong. I remember being on the kitchen floor begging to know what I did.”
“He’d get the scale from the bathroom and clang it hard on the kitchen floor. ‘Well, get on the damn thing!’ Trigger would yell. ‘This is what you need to know.’”
“We have a relationship now,” says Metz. “I do love him and I do care about him.”